Saturday, May 9

I am so tired..

Where do I begin?I am soooo tired,I just want to rest forever and ever..A few weeks ago,I had a shock of my life,one morning my world became all topsy turvy.I could not move my head=just a slight move,everything came crashing down.rupa-rupa nya my bp melambung tinggi,setinggi twin tower tuuu...Ya Allah,I thought it was the end of me,mula la fikir yg bukan2,semua anak2 ada except Ajeem,sehari suntuk Mak Teh tak bergerak.

Sekarang kena la watch my diet,I am not that heavy,just a little over 50kg.maybe,emosi terganggu.Yes ,lately,Mak Teh terlalu banyak berfikir,macam2 ada diotak fikiran ,kalau boleh scan ,tentu nampak macam rojak didalamnya.all that matters to me now is to get as much rest as possible,rasa terlalu letih teramat ,dah tak peduli kerja dah beres belum,hanya terasa nak baring aja,masa dah sampai kot?

Hari ini called Abah,lepas rindu,terasa sedih sangat,talked to my kak besaq-she's like a mother to me,she's too not keeping well,just like me,ye lah,it's all in the family.Abah doesn't want to stay with me,too far away from home katanya-home is Perlis-kak besaq is in Penang-so naturally Abah prefers to be there-within an hour dah sampai rumah.sayang sangat Abah kat rumahnya dikampung tu.Mak Teh nak jugak jaga makan minum Abah.nak balas semua jasa abah selama ini,membesar dan mendidik kami semua.Kadang2 terasa bagai nak tinggal aja semua disini dan balik kampung jaga Abah or just to be there for him.{ sigh }bahagianya kalau boleh jaga Abah..






Dah tak boleh tulis dah ni-I'm near tears..so,khuda hafiz.

3 comments:

MamaFaMi said...

Oh oh... your blood go upstairs eh Mak Teh. Take it easy dear. Kena jaga tu.
About your dad tu, memang orang tua selalu berfikiran macam tu Mak Teh. They prefer their own home. My dad was like that actually but he was left with no choice. Mom was not well and couldn't take care of herself and abah. I know ajal and maut di tangan Allah tapi I think, abah will be much happier if he can 'leave' from his own home...

MAK TEH said...

mamafami:
upstairs mak teh dah jadi mcm spinning wheels,,,i had too much to think,what with ewann,leaving us,,walaupun dah biasa berjauhan,but this time,it;s too far;sob;;sob//i missed him already.soon mak teh pun akan jadi mcm abah agaknya.how's yr mum today?

comey_lote said...

mak ida pun bp naik mendadak baru2 ni...ada diabetic sekali..baru dapat...sedih ada, risau pun ada...mak ida dah start watching out her diet sejak tau tu..mak teh take care ok..ida pun kdg2 rasa letih...letih seletih2nya..rasa macam nak lari je dr kerja2 yg nak kene b uat..huhuhu...