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I am so tired..

Where do I begin?I am soooo tired,I just want to rest forever and ever..A few weeks ago,I had a shock of my life,one morning my world became all topsy turvy.I could not move my head=just a slight move,everything came crashing down.rupa-rupa nya my bp melambung tinggi,setinggi twin tower tuuu...Ya Allah,I thought it was the end of me,mula la fikir yg bukan2,semua anak2 ada except Ajeem,sehari suntuk Mak Teh tak bergerak.

Sekarang kena la watch my diet,I am not that heavy,just a little over 50kg.maybe,emosi terganggu.Yes ,lately,Mak Teh terlalu banyak berfikir,macam2 ada diotak fikiran ,kalau boleh scan ,tentu nampak macam rojak didalamnya.all that matters to me now is to get as much rest as possible,rasa terlalu letih teramat ,dah tak peduli kerja dah beres belum,hanya terasa nak baring aja,masa dah sampai kot?

Hari ini called Abah,lepas rindu,terasa sedih sangat,talked to my kak besaq-she's like a mother to me,she's too not keeping well,just like me,ye lah,it's all in the family.Abah doesn't want to stay with me,too far away from home katanya-home is Perlis-kak besaq is in Penang-so naturally Abah prefers to be there-within an hour dah sampai rumah.sayang sangat Abah kat rumahnya dikampung tu.Mak Teh nak jugak jaga makan minum Abah.nak balas semua jasa abah selama ini,membesar dan mendidik kami semua.Kadang2 terasa bagai nak tinggal aja semua disini dan balik kampung jaga Abah or just to be there for him.{ sigh }bahagianya kalau boleh jaga Abah..






Dah tak boleh tulis dah ni-I'm near tears..so,khuda hafiz.